So I’m going to go through with it. I’m going to try out packing.
I don’t have a lot of money, but I got a gift card that should cover a cock. For out and out soft packing, for now I can try out the knit dicks I’ve seen on Ravelry.
Biggest problem is going to be finding a harness that fits me- I am thinking I might have to custom make my own.
Here’s some of the cocks I’m looking at:
I’ve seen some great reviews for this one. It is soft enough to pack soft, while still firm enough to penetrate with if done gently. While if I were more dedicated to packing- or even had a regular lover who was interested in embracing my gender fluidity in a sexual capacity- I think this would be the top of my list. As it is, when soft packing (outside of privacy) I don’t know that I *would* have someone around who would necessitate this for me. Also, I couldn’t use it in multiple ways- While on occation I like soft cock, I generally prefer a firm cock when I’m masturbating, and generally a hard one when preforming solo. So this might end up not being the one for me. However, it is $50.
The Good Fella, on the other hand, is definitely of the fuck compatible variety. It isn’t as easy to use for public packing, but from what I’ve heard it works in a very pleasing manner, be you the reciever or giver. Down side, it’s more than I can afford right now at $120.
This is what I’m leaning towards. The downsides are pretty steep though- it’s currently out of stock on babeland, so I’d have to wait, and it doesn’t come in very natural colors. At only $60, it’s definitely affordable with that gift card, and is about average sized. I am considering waiting, or trying to find it from another vendor. Oh, wait, I found it from the manufacturer for $46 + shipping. Down side to ordering from them is I don’t know how descrete the packageing would be. Since I have packages delivered to my mother’s address, I’d either have to let my mom know I’m expecting a dildo in the mail (I’m not out as gender fluid to her, so calling it a cock would get “looks”) or have her ask about it or even worse- Open it. Not too terrifying for me, but sure to be a story that would get told ad naseum.