Bryn Ffrydiolrwydd

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Jan 16

So I’m going to go through with it. I’m going to try out packing.

I don’t have a lot of money, but I got a gift card that should cover a cock. For out and out soft packing, for now I can try out the knit dicks I’ve seen on Ravelry.

Biggest problem is going to be finding a harness that fits me- I am thinking I might have to custom make my own.

Here’s some of the cocks I’m looking at:

The Mr. Right

I’ve seen some great reviews for this one. It is soft enough to pack soft, while still firm enough to penetrate with if done gently. While if I were more dedicated to packing- or even had a regular lover who was interested in embracing my gender fluidity in a sexual capacity- I think this would be the top of my list. As it is, when soft packing (outside of privacy) I don’t know that I *would* have someone around who would necessitate this for me. Also, I couldn’t use it in multiple ways- While on occation I like soft cock, I generally prefer a firm cock when I’m masturbating, and generally a hard one when preforming solo. So this might end up not being the one for me. However, it is $50.

Goodfella

The Good Fella, on the other hand, is definitely of the fuck compatible variety. It isn’t as easy to use for public packing, but from what I’ve heard it works in a very pleasing manner, be you the reciever or giver. Down side, it’s more than I can afford right now at $120.

Woody

This is what I’m leaning towards. The downsides are pretty steep though- it’s currently out of stock on babeland, so I’d have to wait, and it doesn’t come in very natural colors. At only $60, it’s definitely affordable with that gift card, and is about average sized. I am considering waiting, or trying to find it from another vendor. Oh, wait, I found it from the manufacturer for $46 + shipping. Down side to ordering from them is I don’t know how descrete the packageing would be. Since I have packages delivered to my mother’s address, I’d either have to let my mom know I’m expecting a dildo in the mail (I’m not out as gender fluid to her, so calling it a cock would get “looks”) or have her ask about it or even worse- Open it. Not too terrifying for me, but sure to be a story that would get told ad naseum.

Thoughts? suggestions?

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Jan 16

Trans(*) members of Tumblr - Updated x2.

inautumn-inkashmir:

politeyeti:

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deafeninghush:

 

FTMs

MTFs

Bigenders

Genderqueers

Others

Feel free to add yourself :)

Added myself and Kinsey Hope (genderbitch).

I put myself down as “bigender,” but, meh, everything feels disingenuous nowadays. :-((

Added myself under genderqueer.

I’m now one of the 3 in the bigender category. Awesome.

 Added this tumblr. :)

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Jan 13

Engaging

Today, I bought myself a pair of Men’s pants that fit. Typically, I don’t wear pants for sensory reasons, even when I ID strongly as masculine, but I’m trying to engage my masculinity when it pops up. So, pants, and undershirts that while are still women’s, will make it easier for those days.

Don’t get me wrong, even when I ID as a guy, I’m still pretty much a fem guy. An undershirt and a hoodie are kinda my thing those days…

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Jan 2

Dysphoria

sometimes on days when I ID primarily as male, my body is numb and I feel distant from its reality. As though my brain doesn’t wan’t to deal with what my body is like.

But on days when I ID primarily as female, I feel real and solid in my body, loving all of it. Not to say I don’t still have issues from years of fat-hating comments or that I don’t still have dysmorphia surrounding my weight when I see photos of myself. But I’m fully present in the parts of me that are so very forgien on other days.

And the thing is, I don’t notice the numbness until it subsides. built in psychologic defense.

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Dec 29

Daydreaming …

Can we have tech that makes it like we can have mystique’s mutant ability or something? Because that would be one of the most wonderful ones to have, period.

ID as female? female body. ID as male today? Male body. ID as some mixture? That could be done too.

If only the real world was half as advanced as some of our sci fi, tech wise. Anyone have similar day dreams?

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Dec 29
I haven’t been shaving. The hair is all getting decently long, but between it being so light and having a crappy camera, you can’t see it too well. It’s a quiet rebellion this time of year, not Shaving my chin- I may be forced into presenting as entirely femme and cisgendered this time of year, but being from a family of hairy women This I can get away with even around the more conservative members of the family. Doesn’t stop the rude ones- even the liberal rude ones- from letting me know how “horrible” people find women with facial hair. Normally, I shave even when I’m IDing as male, as I’m a bit Fem-ish even then. And while I would love to be able to magically have a full beard that I can groom when I ID as male, It can get unsettling when I don’t and I end up with facial hair.

I haven’t been shaving. The hair is all getting decently long, but between it being so light and having a crappy camera, you can’t see it too well.

It’s a quiet rebellion this time of year, not Shaving my chin- I may be forced into presenting as entirely femme and cisgendered this time of year, but being from a family of hairy women This I can get away with even around the more conservative members of the family.

Doesn’t stop the rude ones- even the liberal rude ones- from letting me know how “horrible” people find women with facial hair.

Normally, I shave even when I’m IDing as male, as I’m a bit Fem-ish even then. And while I would love to be able to magically have a full beard that I can groom when I ID as male, It can get unsettling when I don’t and I end up with facial hair.

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Dec 29

What does “Bryn Ffrydiolrwydd” mean?

“Bryn Ffrydiolrwydd” means “Fluidity Hill” in Welsh.

Since I sometimes go by Cora Bryn, I thought that writing a blog about my gender fluidity and Calling it “Fluidity Hill” would be amusing to me. (“Bryn” means Hill.)

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